sunnuntai 16. marraskuuta 2014

36-39 Weeks

Oh no kidding, I have been in super nesting mode, sorry! My blogging took a back seat, it just had to. So much going on, I couldn't keep up as well as I thought I could.

Whats been going on??? 36-37 WEEKS

Here are some of my messages to my family and friends. Please don't get offended...

..."Please pray...  I feel intimidated and fear,  which I know is not right. I had an appointment today with my birth clinic and the amount of times I heard the words "possible stillbirth" because of my gestational diabetes, has impacted me. I want to enjoy this Pregnancy, the last weeks of it,  but at this moment I feel like my joy is being robbed and it's hard to hold on to it...  :( the birth in near and I'm tired. I want my joy back. I can't seem to enjoy my pregnancies in Canada... It's very messed up."...

Is the baby still breech?

During one Diabetic clinic appointment, I got a call from another hospital to book in an ECV and that I needed to get a scan done before that. They didn't give me much time. The ECV was booked in two days and there was no way i could get a scan done before that. I was very overwhelmed with having to manage it all, with three kids, no babysitting support, short notice, and as well as everything else, it overlapped with my midwife appointment which I'd been really looking forward to. Not only that, my appointment at the diabetics clinic ended up in tears. I had the rudest Dr. and I felt like my whole pregnancy is a failure.

Somehow, I managed to get a time in that very next minute for the scan, which is very unusual. A minute before I went to book one in, someone cancelled theirs. My daughter was with me as we hurried to the floor below for the scan, which would show us the positioning of the baby. My heart was aching, my tears were flooding, I was so emotionally tired of the whole thing.

As we got to the scan, my daughter who is 5 prayed for me. She prayed over the baby and the positioning of the baby. I thought that was so sweet of her. I love her.

In the scan, the result was that in fact, the baby was head down!!!!!!! PRAISE GOD!!!!

 ..."Well, a very interesting scenario all in all this morning. Perfectly orchestrated, to fit in a scan asap, which was a cancellation spot a minute before I stepped in to a different department, ask a simple question about a booking ,  while I was in the building for a completely different reason...  I know confusing! While waiting for the scan,  Kayleigh and all of you prayed for me  and, the scan showed that baby had in fact shifted head down. All glory to God.
Yep. They called me this morning to book an appointment for the ecv (external cephalic version) which is an aggressive procedure, can cause a lot of harm,  ruptures,  bruising, emergency c sections)  and I just wasn't feeling comfortable to go with it. As I got treated rotten by my diabetes Dr. And Who told me my baby is measuring bigger than the scan showed,  I felt very intimidated. Somehow they got me into a scan right away and before the scan,  Kayleigh prayed so beautifully... I was bawling my eyes out from the diabetes appointment to the scan... Just a rough  time with appointments left right and centre and feeling pressured."...

You guys must've been praying a lot. I had really weird appointments (3) this morning. Only positive feedback. "Baby is moving so well".. . "Baby is head down and not too large"... And "no,  we don't need to put you on insulin"... " you have an admirable history on birthing big babies and fast deliveries"
I couldn't believe that this was the same clinic(s) that I had been going to for months"...

Then after all of this good stuff...
..."Had a little bit of a fright today when I couldn't get the baby to move for 5h. After trying everything possible, I called the triage and they called me in to the  hospital. They strapped me in and noticed that the baby heart rate was a bit high,  but soon enough it settled down and the baby moved a lot. We've spent our whole Friday evening at the hospital but are home now. The kids are 4hours past their bed time... In bed finally. Hoping and praying for no more scares and worries please"...

 With you in spirit!

38-39 WEEKS (my pregnancy notes)

A lot of braxton hicks, some of them quite intense, which keeps me guessing. I feel like I've been birthing for a week! I'll be surprised if this pregnancy goes past 40 weeks. Truly.

Blood sugars have gone down to normal,  even in the mornings, the Dr. decided not to put me on insulin... Good. I seriously don't think I have it,  because I still eat what I want, when I want, and my levels are spot on.

I hope this baby comes early.The braxton hicks are getting so intense, I don't know whether they are the real thing...ugh! This is my 4th, shouldn't I know what's what by now? So frustrating....

My folks will be visiting soon, interesting to know which parent will be present when baby arrives...

Suffering a cold... Ugh. Giving birth while sick?!

 We got to go for a Sauna at a Finnish friend's house. He built this sauna and stove himself. Sauna's are standard in every house and flat unit in Finland, I miss it a lot. And boy it was nice.

 Having a hard time getting out of bed. I turn sides each night at least 20 times, and it sometimes causes muscle cramps on the sides of my stomach, and they hurt a lot! My hubby sometimes has to turn me around, and it makes me feel like whale blubber.

My belly button is out!!!

 Fetal monitoring... which after 2 visits, I found out these were unnecessary appointments. Only women on insulin were required to go. Another unnecessary stress on my schedule.

 I'm ready to give birth. Trying to loosen things by sitting on my ball... 

Soul food. Korean hot pot. Mmmm....

lauantai 4. lokakuuta 2014

35 Weeks

Breech. The baby is breech. I have tried several ways to turn this baby around,  secular ways,  but in my heart of hearts I know that God has ultimate control, and I am placing my trust in Him. I can't say it has been easy to surrender my fears,  but what can I do? Nothing...  I have no choice but to trust Him,  great is His love and goodness for my life and the life of this baby. He knows my desires and wishes,  but I know He is all knowing and seeing and if he wanted to,  He could turn this baby in a second.
I have tried to lie down on an recline position. I have tried moxibustion. 
I have seen and continue to see a chiro...  ($$$!!!),  I have done summersaults under water,  a.k.a. Swimming. I've used heat and ice packs, 

 music,  light... I have prayed. This baby won't budge. 

I pray,  Lord if it is by at all possible for this baby to turn, being safe and all, please allow it. If turning the baby externally (ECV), delivering breech, or c- section is the safest way for us,  give me the peace and trust to go ahead with it. However,  You are all knowing,  You know what is going on...  I surrender. I rebuke satan and his schemes, his temptation to worry me and place fear in my heart,  for You love me,  this baby and everything works for the good! Help me persevere, help me stay calm and joyous throughout these last weeks of pregnancy.
I praise you,  Oh God! 

 My very own pumpkin!

 I still swear by the foam curlers. Super comfy to sleep in!

 I took my Chinese language teacher to my favourite restaurant. She loved it too!!! Hot Pot fan forever!!!

 Went and bought a few different kinds of dried dates. I soaked them over night, pureed them and used them in Raw Bars. There's only so many days I can eat plain dates... needs to be more exciting, you know.
 I bought a box of HoneyCrisp Apples... Made a zillion chips next to nothing.


Been tired of cooking... lots of salads and cold cuts these days. Easy peasy throw together kind of food. Above, whole wheat sandwich, cinnamon apples and a kale salad.

 35 weeks, hello!!!

34 Weeks

I just did my big payday grocery shopping for the week-2�� Whew! Now,  I'm going to get out of bed and tackle the day. Thank God for home delivery! I mean really,  someone shops for me,  and on promotion days like today,  free delivery!! Ihan parasta! Beats 3h of grocery shopping 3 to 4 shops with 3 mental kids by the end of it. I know I won't get the best deals (I like to hunt for them) but it's done! Now,  I'm going to brush my teeth! Good morning everybody!! ����������

Measuring my glucose levels every other day. Everything is fine, totally diet controlled. I still enjoy my treats and my levels are normal. In some ways,  it's interesting to monitor the levels,  because for sure, too many people eat before their bodies need it and eventually it will catch up with them in a bad way. 

Hospital bag is pretty much packed. Here is my list. 

Personal supplies
Pregnancy file folder
Tiger balm
Lactation cookies
Greens + and shaker
Pyjamas 1
Pyjamas 2
Nursing shirt to go home in
Trousers to go home in
6 pairs of undies
Soap container dish
Brush,  shampoo and conditioner
Toothpaste and brush
Breastfeeding pads
Belly bandit
Nursing bra
Paper and pen
Small cooler for placenta
Sanitary pads,  maxi
Water bottles,  Gatorade
Raw honey
Dark brew

Tablet,  phones,  chargers
Bible,  Christ centered childbirth book
Melodious music
Bed linen/
Change of clothes
Protein bars, 
bananas, yogurt, 
Foods, snacks etc in a cooler
Celebration beer!
Swim pants just in case,  birthing pool etc

Baby stuff
Sleep wear,  pyjamas, hats
Receiving blankets and
Car seat
Diapers,  wipes

I know,  pretty crazy,  but I like to be prepared, even if we don't get to use half of the stuff. The dark brew is for lactation, obviously!

My mom sent me some muslin baby clothes a.k.a "harsot" ,  which are way better than receiving blankets,  spit up cloths. They are thin, absorbant. 

A midwife /nurse asked me to consider a home birth. To me,  a home birth is a no - no. I have weighed up the options and I have complete peace with my decision to have hospital births. Hats off to those who choose a home birth,  just as well as hats off to those who don't. You do what is best for you and your baby,  don't feel pressured by it. I just hope I make it to one of the places! I don't know what to expect!? 


A sample of what I eat. This is on the go, parked my car to have dinner, in the midst of nursing bra shopping. Taco mince meat, baked sweet potato and cauliflower mash. "hunger is the best spice!" - M.L

perjantai 19. syyskuuta 2014

32 and 33 Weeks

I took the time to get my feet done! Finally, I bought my own "tools" to do it myself, but then I realized that it wasn't possible anymore. There's this bump between me and my feet!? I made this also a sweet bonding time for my daughter and I, she also enjoyed a mini mani and pedi :)

We bought baby clothes for the hospital, neutral ones, for fun really! We still don't know which one we're having so the colours are yellow and cream. I have a feeling it is a boy, but then it must be a girl, right? We'll see....

I've used Evernote app to plan out my hospital bag. Wonderful, checking everything off as I go. A week or so, the bag will be set to go. Just waiting for the baby to get ready.

I got the results back from the sugar test. POSITIVE!!!???? I am officially gestational diabetic, which I think is nonsense. I drank a lot of sugar during that test and my results were point 1 above the limit. My body obviously wasn't used to the sugar and was like "whoooah?!" Now, I got the gadgets and the sets and I am testing my sugar levels 4 times a day. And my levels just happen to be NORMAL. Will talk to the Dr. at my next appointment and show my results, that I am OK! I mean, I had a chocolate feast last night and my levels and ketones were spot on. I'll keep you posted.

Dreaming about the birth, waiting so patiently. Wondering how will it go...  Praying for the best, trusting the Lord. I’ve been inhaling the CCC book as much as I can. Meditating on the verses and just picturing how the birth might go. I know that anything can happen, and I don't want to plan out too much, it's all in God's hands.

I got a "push present" from hubby,  -a tablet! Now my zillion appointments won't be so overwhelming, and I can plan out the schedules and meals and just browse during my waits!

 This is what my waits usually look like, and yes, the coffee helps.

I baked lactation chocolate chip cookies. Two kinds, regular and banana dried plum, cranberry and chocolate chip ones. Smelled like I was baking with beer, but the taste is great! I'm freezing them for the hospital. And bummer, forgot to take pictures! They just look like chocolate chip cookies but a lot darker.

I'm also eating dates and prunes. This is why
Eat Date Fruit!
Yes, and this one has a recent study behind it. According to this study on ‘the effect of late pregnancy consumption of date fruit on labour and delivery’:
“We set out to investigate the effect of date fruit (phoenix dactylifera) consumption on labour parameters and delivery outcomes… 69 women consumed six date fruits per day for 4 weeks prior to their estimated date of delivery, compared with 45 women who consumed none… The women who consumed date fruit:
  • Had significantly higher mean cervical dilatation upon admission compared with the non-date fruit consumers (3.52 cm vs 2.02 cm, p < 0.0005)
  • Had a significantly higher proportion of intact membranes (83% vs 60%, p = 0.007).
  • Spontaneous labour occurred in 96% of those who consumed dates, compared with 79% women in the non-date fruit consumers (p = 0.024).
  • Use of prostin/oxytocin (for inducing/augmenting labour) was significantly lower in women who consumed dates (28%), compared with the non-date fruit consumers (47%) (p = 0.036).
  • The mean latent phase of the first stage of labour was shorter in women who consumed date fruit compared with the non-date fruit consumers (510 min vs 906 min, p = 0.044).
It is concluded that the consumption of date fruit in the last 4 weeks before labour significantly reduced the need for induction and augmentation of labour, and produced a more favourable, but non-significant, delivery outcome. The results warrant a randomised controlled trial."

I'm doing well, despite lower back, pelvis and hip ache. Saw my osteopath but unfortunately this time around it didn't work as well as I would've hoped for. Stretching with hubby at nights has already helped a lot. 

It seems to become a tradition that my very sweet, sweet, friend from Finland, helps me prepare for birth by sending me this oil,


I think that this oil has a lot to do with the fact that I can have big babies (10lb-11lb/4.3-5kg) without tearing. Really.

I found these two really yummy recipes while I waited for my son to finish up his appointment with the orthodontist, - I still want to share them with you!

We bought a new car seat, even though we have 3 perfectly fine infant seats in the garage, that have nothing wrong with them, they've never been in an accident and look spanking new. However, these car seats are doomed to go to the dump. The law in Canada is s.t.u.p.i.d about car seats. I don't even want to go into details with their "monopoly", but all I will say, it's silly. And I'm putting that nicely.

Loving my new foam rollers, I can sleep in them with comfort! Now my selfie looks even better with some locks.

Sept 9th was our last scan, baby was the "wrong"  way around,  the scan picture was the cutest.. 


Isn't she/he cute?! Sweet little baby, I LOVE YOU!!!!! I cannot wait to meet you!!!! You have your daddy's chin!